24 years back....Can I?

24 years ever since...

Happy Birthday to me.
Got this piece of birth date from my ma...She kept for everyone in the family and now, i requested to take from her, for my blog. Ha... 24 years passed. What is happening during 1981? One glance can tell is a totally different world. (The chinese chara was read from right side) Kinda sweet & grateful for this thought. I think if there is a chance to have kids in future maybe will keep their birth dates too. Maybe the future kids wont give a damn for a piece of rubbish?

To my cols my age is considered beri young. However,i feel old cos i couldnt say out loud in my head whenever i made mistakes- tt i'm still young. Sometimes feel envy my frenz whom have always have the energy hanging out late & pampering themselves...(Maybe i shld wk in town area to make my life more interesting huh? )

To me, adult life and working life is = Helpless. Helpless tt you cant bitch at anyone, anytime, anywhere even though you know you are being taken advt in work, in life.

These days not very in mood....should i say no feel for birthday?
Yest celeb my ma's BD. Bought a durain cake from emi, packed some hor fun, mee goreng, fried rice, yi-mee & sweet sour pork for her. The cake is not to my expectation...Prefer Angie the Choice but the two outlets near my hse closed! Anyway, my sis said since i'm half a BD gal so I dun have to pay anything...Suling came to my hse too. Yeah, sometimes i think a vistor do brighten up the atmosphere & made a celebration more worthwhile.

Too bad i din eat much. Having a sharp headache yest while working. I always thought i'm as strong as a bull until i saw myself reacting the same as my fellow cols....coughing and headache. Yeah, din noe headache can be such a pain. Feel like someone was using a screw driver to screw into my brain... and the stupid work seem pilling up at my desk.

These few days been helping my team cols to do their projects while my own project was put aside. Who is going to help me by then? Two billing months pending ever since the unsolved problems exist...Doing data entry over 100 pages and my OR's fav quote is "finish this by this morning/today" Christ! She really think things are easy and her things are always urgent? Then dun give mi at the last min! Somemore the data is not accurate...Now, heard tt another new project is coming up in Jan but she asked if any of my frenz wanna work. Also mentioned that she had tell the head to convert me to perm nxt yr. Oh...so her converting is wat? after my ending contract which is Oct? Wat's the use of converting me if the sal is still lower then a normal clerk? Whenever i think of others getting a decent sal and bonus i juz hate my current job. I think she sensed my "endu" in the job and hinted something. Anyway, no mood to guess wat she wanna say to me.

Alright, back to today. Got over ten sms greetings from frenz....kinda surprised cos most are the ones i din stay contact wif. Yeah, isolated from most frenz ever since poly so wouldnt surprise if anyone will still rem. But none wanna meet me today. Okay, i mean even they wanna ask me out, i got no strength to walk or eat either. My sis & her frenz got mi a mini one-pax portion of mango cake...Haven eat it yet. Waiting for my sis to come back...oh, should i juz light up the candle & blow myself? Besides my BD is my team mgr's last day. Din chat once though her cubi is beri near mine...I managed to escape the foto-taking session as well as the knock-off time where pple bid farwell. Hmm...Am i too obvious? Too proud? I did attend the farewell lunch but i juz cant pretend to be close to my dept whom seldom talk and talk mushy things at tt situation. Anyway, as senior cols and mgr they din bother to chat or ask me Qs. So it's ok for me to disappear now & then. Scare of more of these kind of gathering-grp of cols obviously not close yet specially gathered to celeb bds, farwell...

My col lent mi a korean drama "bride 18 years old", quite funny...guess will concentrate watching them for the four days holidays. Cant sing ktv anyway...maybe go swimming?
Yeah, tml going to malaysia wif my family. Eat seafood hopefully can do some shopping at JB....These days raining heavily at nite. Hope tml nite will be different. Wanna see fireflies....