发财！发财！

发财！鼠年行大运！

This year kinda looking forward to cny...at least having a positive mindset to celeb it. This yr actually take an effort to clean up my room walls, throw away one big stack of magazines. Seem like i've endless of mags...need to reduce the buying. Yes, i've stopped buying these years but today see Jay Chou on i-weekly cover & i bought it in the end, again. =)

Yest went home early since half day.....stopped my worries of all outstanding pile of work & heed my col's advice- to hide whole pile of papers in the drawer! Din manage to wipe clean my desk though...dun care lah...just washed my hands off my work for at least this precious whole week!

Yest eat reunion dinner instead of eating in afternoon. My bro's gf joined us since she's from Ipoh & din manage to get back her hometown. My ma seem like her... okay lah....to me, she is better than some of the previous ones. One year younger than me, quite modern & slim. Juz can't help thinking & comparing myself with her when seeing her. Esp when our age is similar. 同人不同命 think i need to slim down & buy more clothing for myself. I'm 27 this year!

Today went down to temple quite late afternoon. Yeah, our practise every year. Feel weird if we dun eat vegetarian food & go temple on day one~ Donate few bucks & got myself a golden rat holding gold. hehe, oso got a small envelope from fortune god box for lucky 4 numbers... call me auntie but these are the things that brighten & add up spice of new year mah~ Hope of getting a better luck & fortune.

Yes, i bought a bronze rooster statue for 6 bucks at a stall outside the temple. My ma bought other stuff & this seller auntie was chatting to me. Told me that not to be choosy if still single- as long as the guy is good in character & have a job go ahead & get married cos she already married to someone over ten years older than her & lower in education than her...Errm....sensitive topic to discuss during chinese new year. Okay, i know wat she meant but so far din see such a single, available good man come by my side how to say choosy or not ley? haha, this year so many books stated tao hua is good....see how loh. Tt stall auntie gave each of us a fortune bronze coin to 发财...muz buy toto & 4D liao~

My biggest wish now is get slim down, build up my confidence, getting prettier of cos~ & do something meaningful & interesting for 2008. Wanna enjoy my youth in remaining 20s b4 i hit 30s soon.

My insurance agent said my job is not getting far and i shld plan my future to learn more on leadership....bla bla bla....my reply is rather defensive i admit.....tt i dun intend to be a leader anyway. This world filled up diff levels of pple & these pple make the world goes round & make things work. Not only leaders survive right? I agreed i need to think wat i like to learn / do for my future....know wat is the value in me which i can continue find job even in my older age....

I know & i will find time for some serious thoughts. But currently i juz cant let go & give up my job esp when there are still something which i feel worth my staying. Maybe tt day will come, the day i feel i need to go no matter how good the environment is....not now ba...