Headache December....

Long time din update my life. Well...like my bog. Had been a mess and juz started to recover abit..Dunno y my blog was in chaos & now using a default template by blogger. Well, actually since I juz wanted a simple blog layout so lazy to re-design again. Anyway...

Few weeks ago, came 4 temp staff to help out in my dept. This week added another 4 temps though 2 most prob will be terminated soon...All because of the new project. New project going to lanuch in next yr feb..& my dept is involved. Hey, we are juz billing dept y muz kept taking over so many projects since there are only 5 of us? (somemore 1 is supervisor= 4 helping hands) Heard tt each person might take over 4 govt sites to take care in case they called for enquires. Issues that are we ourselves dun even know. Went for their meeting presentation. Seem like most issues of new project still floating...pricing & plans stuff. Juz pray hard next yr i can endure or else i think i muz squeeze time to job hunt again.

In the office, i was polite since the youngest, quiet and timid maybe. But i think i really fed up & finally lose my temper in the office wif my lunch kakis. (Finally)

Please loh...When everyone were busy did i say or grumble anything? Maybe i shown in my face..which i cannot control loh. When the first 4 temps came in...no one in my dept wanna take care of them. Juz always came to me asking if i go over & check on them. Hey, did anyone say i'm in charge of them? Their attitude is not good, chatted openly together, surfing net and talking loud....wat can i say? My age is not much different from them ley. My cols can blame tt i'm too soft watever shit...until now, another 4 new temps came in then my supervisor split the duty. Each staff take care of 2 temps. Then i realised the older temps did not know who is my lunch kakis as well as the rest of my dept!! Okay! So meaning to say my cols had been passing by and never even dare to lecture the temps while on the other hand expect me to control the kids. So, i'm the bad person role~ Luckily now, i'm in charge of new temps whom are better behaved.

Yeah back to my lunch kakis. She out of nowhere juz say out in office "hey, not onli you are stress...everyone is stress oso. I'm oso stress you know." Bloody hell...saying these sound like i'm bullying her izzit. Yest kinda argued wif her finally...over a small issue. My lunch kakis drew up a table for the temps & i dun think the temps will understand. So confusing & extra. But i know what she trying to explains...but due to the age generation gap, which i always think is, she thought i dun understand what's is going on & raise her voice. I oso raised my voice in the end, which i guess everyone in my dept & dept next to mine muz think i'm gettin proud. Well, i dun wanna care wat pple's thinking of me anymore. She wanted mi to draw a table instead & i refused saying "sorry loh, today is fri & i cant think" She juz shoot " you are really terrible" and walked off.

Watever, maybe i'm gettin proud since i'm involved more in this new project (all the checking came to me so no one really invlove anyway) Y everyone ask me things since all in my dept learnt abt the new project at the same time??

Maybe i got bad attitude but how to be nice when whole day 4 new temps kept coming to mi with all sorts of Qs?? After solving their probs i need to sort & ensure watever they keyed in are accurate....All these can really make me crazy. And the new temps are onli here for a month meaning to say, if there is new batch coming...i need to coach afresh & they will prompt same Qs again....Qs which i cannot answer. F***K

Mon supposed to be my leave day was cancelled by my supervisor. My resposibilities are heavier than my value & salary. Sian. Wonder if the quiet, kind of me is juz a wannabe image...i'm not a nice person. Not totally.